– believing in yourself is the secret of success –
Recently, I’ve done a few things that, although small and perhaps insignificant to other people, I’m really proud of.
I’m an overthinker, a worrier. I get nervous doing things that a lot of people wouldn’t even think twice about. However, I feel that in the last year or so, I’ve grabbed this habit of overthinking and worrying, given it a firm kick and left it trailing behind me. It hasn’t completely gone but it’s so much further away from me than it used to be.
What prompted me to write this post was something that happened at Uni. I was sat in one of my seminars and started to feel nervous about talking in front of the class and making it in time for my next lecture (I have five minutes to get literally from one side of campus to the other!). I got some of the symptoms that I usually get – shivers, feeling like adrenaline is about to kick in, very aware of my surroundings. My first thought was ‘I’ve been doing so well and now I’m feeling nervous again’ as if it meant that everything I had done previously was now irrelevant. However, it went. And I carried on with the rest of my day.
Now, reflecting on the situation whilst snug under a blanket, I want to highlight what I have done and the progress I have made. Because isn’t that what matters? Not the few minutes that familiar feeling came back but all the times it was completely gone and I was able to do what I wanted to do despite the worries.
Since being at Uni, I’ve been to both the gym and to a lecture by myself. This probably doesn’t seem like a big deal to most people but I used to get so nervous about feeling trapped or that if something happened to me, I’d be on my own. Doing both of these things, and in the space of a week, made me feel quite proud and like I’d really defeated something. I still feel a little nervous but now I know I can do it and I’m going to keep doing it until that feeling is completely gone.
As well as these smaller victories, as I was walking to Uni the other day, I realised how happy I am that I’ve been able to come to Uni, do everything by myself and be pretty good at it, too. For someone who could barely order their own dinner in a restaurant, living away from home, cooking for myself and being in charge of getting myself places and doing my work is something I’m so proud that I can do.
One more thing is driving. I started driving lessons over a year ago now but after having a break during my first year of Uni, I was terrified of starting again and really wanted to cancel my lessons. However, I kept going and now, I look forward to my lessons and I’m getting more and more confident in my ability.
These are pretty small successes but I’ve realised that even when I have a little slip, I’ve still managed to achieve something that used to be really hard for me to do. And that’s what matters. Also, more often than not, its seen as self-centred or egotistical to discuss your successes – you should be modest. But why shouldn’t we be proud of what we’ve achieved and worked for? If we can’t openly celebrate our successes, we should try to remember them so if we do have any slips or failures, we can think about everything we’ve already done and celebrate it.
Be proud of your successes.