Today’s post is a little different than normal. I really wanted to just discuss something that’s been brought to my attention whilst at Uni.
I don’t know if its my age, the fact that I’m at Uni or the digital age that has dominated my teenage years, but I feel like I am obsessed with documenting memories. If I have a good day, I want to take a picture, write it down – do anything and everything I can possibly do so that I don’t forget.
I never really thought anything of this until a few days ago. I’d come back from a really great night out with my friends and we’d had such a good time. It was full of laughs, funny things people said and stuff I want to remember – memories. On our way up to bed, my friend said “Oh no! We had such a good night out and we didn’t take any pictures!” I said “But can’t we just remember it?” and since then, I keep thinking about this.
I feel like I’m running the risk of sounding so pretentious, strangely philosophical or like I’m just not making any sense at all but I’m going to keep going!
I have an Everyday Memory Book of which I’m now filling in the second year out of five so I have basically written down what I did every day for a year. I’m really glad that I have this as I can read about all the little things I did on down days that I’d forgotten had happened. My bedroom is also full to the brim with pictures of myself and my friends and family, showing all of my favourite memories with people I love.
When I look at these, I think ‘would I have remembered this if I didn’t take a picture?’
I think the reason I keep thinking about this is because I’m terrified of forgetting these moments and memories. I’m so scared that one day, after Uni, I’ll forget the night we were awake until 5 am watching the results of the General Election or the evening of my parents anniversary BBQ when we stayed up playing music quizzes.
I have a feeling that the reason why I feel like this now is because of how quickly my life is moving. I started Uni a year ago and so much happened in this past year that I feel like I blinked and nearly missed it all.
I also think that documenting your life on social media – as I do in this blog – increases the pressure of keeping pictures of everything you’ve done. Having said this, I also take so many pictures that I would never even consider putting on the internet and keep for my friends and I to look back on.
So, basically, I’m torn. I love taking pictures to capture these memories and writing them down so I have them for the rest of my life, so I don’t forget. But I also think, shouldn’t we live in the moment and just remember these memories as quality time spent with good people? But then again, what if I forget it?
What do you think about this? Am I overthinking? Is it just the fact that Uni is going so quickly? I’d love to hear what you think so if you feel like it, please leave a comment!